noses and grindstones and bears, oh my.

I’m doing one of my least favorite things in the world. Revising. And I will be doing that for the foreseeable future.

You see, I have two books due in the first week of November. This might seem like kind of a terrifying thing, but really it could be much worse. Because both of them are written.

That’s where things get complicated, though.

Because one of them needs a complete ground-up rewrite, including an entire new middle, plot and all, which I am about a third of the way into. Or, more precisely, I’ve just hit the part where the existing draft (which I have already rewritten about seven times) fell apart. Now, the rewrite involves turning this novel (All the Windwracked Stars) from first-person single-narrator noir into third-person with five POV characters, because part of the reason the original version was so broken was because Muire (my protagonist) missed a great deal of the plot, hearing about it–eventually–third-hand.

And I had to machine ways to get her into other portions of the plot, which could as easily be handled by different characters.

Not such a great thing.

The complication on the other one, which is Promethean Age #3 and currently Between Titles, is that I have no idea what it needs, because I am also currently Between Editors at that publishing house. You see, my former editor has accepted a position elsewhere and her replacement has not yet been hired. So, um.

I have a sensation that I might just wind up making the changes I know need to be made, and hoping a little direction arrives at some point. Because I don’t want to lose my July slot in the roster, and of course I’m a little interested in finding out who my new team-mate will be and if I will be able to work effectively with him or her or it, or if it’s going to be pitchforks and Frankenstein rakes.

So one worries.

Perhaps unduly.

(Bears, we will note, really suck at enduring suspense. I loathe surprises. Anticipation gives me panic attacks. Just either tell me, man, or don’t, and if you don’t tell me, don’t be surprised when I lose all interest in the proceedings and go off to do something else. Except, you know, that particular self-defense mechanism doesn’t really work when it’s your job under discussion.)

But first, I need to revise this other book, the Edda of Burdens book, the one with Muire in it.

And you see, that’s a conundrum. Because it really needs the revisions. It’s not very good, as it is, and I want to make it as close to brilliant as I possibly can. But man, by this point in the process–well, unless you’ve done it yourself, I can’t begin to describe how bored I am with this novel.

And this is also the point where I can’t remember what thing happens in which version, which is a problem I still have with Blood & Iron.

(Which is my most-rewritten novel, comprising twelve drafts, three of them massive gut-and-retrofits, including adding new POV characters and ripping out a third of the existing book.)

Yeah. Like that.

This is the part where it stops being about art or inspiration or even a Puritan work ethic, and becomes about nothing more than sheer bloodymindedness.

This is, in short, what we fondly* refer to as the glamour.

And for me, this is the hardest part of the process. It’s not any fun. It’s not revelatory. There’s no rush of creation, no euphoria, no dance of discovery. There is only the exhaustive working over and over of every damned sentence and line and idea, trying to make sure they make sense, trying to make sure they fit.

Most books I write have at least three drafts before an editor ever sees them. This one will have had eight. Maybe nine, because as I am doing such a complete rewrite and so much of it is new, it needs to be gone over with the fine-toothed comb reserved for new prose.

And then, after my editor sees it, I will be revising it again, at length and painstakingly.

Meanwhile, I need to do the final revision pass on Dust, which that editor just sent back to me, and get that returned to her by the end of the month.

At least I’ve only been over that one three or four times, so it probably won’t be quite so boring.

And I am visiting my dad in North Carolina right now, and driving all over the Eastern seaboard, and attending a writer’s retreat starting Saturday. And the purpose of these things is supposedly to buy you more time to write, or give you a break from writing, and give you a chance to bond with other writers, and to learn by critiquing their work, and… something?

And mostly right now I’m just stressed out about it as one more thing I am supposed to be doing. (Of course once I get there it will be whoosh! Nothing but fun! Because I love these people. But still. Aiiieeeee. To put it softly.)

…still sure you want to be a writer?

*Where “fondly” means “ironically.” - Ed.

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actually, yes, I do, but I have a terrible time doing plot. Dialog, check. Characterization, mostly check. Even showing vs. telling, check. Plot, not so much. I can’t get from point A to point B — even when I’m trying to write a fictionalization of something that’s happened to me…

But that’s why I’m an IT engineer, and you’re a writer. :)

It’s a truly horrible thing to have a deadline on a book you are bored with…I know the feeling well. It’s also difficult if you’ve had a very long disconnect. I’ll very soon be tackling the very last part of The Orffyreus Wheel - the novel I put up in bits on Amazon.com. The problem is, the last time I worked on it was about five months ago, and that was the first bit of work on it for about three months before that. I don’t even know if it’s coherent…but I’ll have to finish it, get it off of Amazon, and polish the full draft up…not fun.

Where in NC? I’m in Baltimore on travel, but will be back in Hertford either tonight or tomorrow…

Dave

That NAILS it, Bear.

Elizabeth, your essay ought to be required reading for all wannabee writers. Even gifted, hard-working writers have to revise novels several times and then revise, revise, revise some more, often when the original spark/impetus is gone and they are even sick of their novel. Yeah, verily, it is not all mega-million dollar book deals and Hollywood knocking at your door with more bucks and rising fame.

On top of that, editors may leave the publisher and you may end up getting the Editor from Hell, or, if not that bad, a mismatch of personalities and philosophies.

Well, done. BTW, you almost convinced me not to write anymore.
;)

John, I still think it’s the best job in the world, however.

David, Winston-Salem.

Hell or not, it’s a bit of heaven by commiseration you pass along, Bear. Almost delighted to hear how many rewrites you pour into your vibrant prose. Makes the endless efforts of others in the same vein (vain?) less lonely. Self-loathing is in the mix too for anyone who tries to revisit the novelty of expression too many times. Alas, perspective is everything. Thanks for adding your perspective on the problem of perspective…

– Sully (Thomas Sullivan)

I really enjoyed reading this, not as schadenfraude (sp?) but empathetically. OK, maybe ‘enjoyed’ isn’t the word!

I don’t work nearly as hard as you, but I know just what you mean about the bloodymindedness. Fwiw, I admire you for sticking it out.

I’m sure it will bear fruit.

Editor-wise: Aargh!! I’ve had so many different ones that I’ve learned not to get too attached/freaked, but it’s terrible to be left hanging in the middle of a revision with no idea what they want of you. I hope you get some movement there soon.

Enjoy NC!

–Tricia Sullivan

I want my new editor! Wah!

Schadenfreude is, after all, what it’s all about….

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